its been 9mths after my last post, I guessed no one will view my blog again!
good coz dont wanna let ppl know my feelings.
NO POLY wants me! i feel so disspointed didnt expect that i will end up here. why!!!! they can get in but not me! i have better points than them yet i cant get in! FUCK! frankly speaking, I am still sad that i didnt get into poly although i smile infront of my friends and telling them that i'm okay but actually I AM NOT!!!! so envious of them getting in! i have been wasting 3 years! and by retaking my english doesnt mean i will get in this year! coz i dont hav confidence! oral is coming soon and i'm fucking stress! sometimes really feel like commit suicide. but i dont have the courage to do so! how stupid i am! or maybe rammed by a car will do! i really hope so! i wanna leave this world! please take away my soul! i hate life! its meaningless to me.
tried before standing at level 12 wanna jump down, but i cant coz i know its gonna hurt like hell!
can someone tell me, what if i fail english again? what can i do next? private sch need a pass in english!
i tried really hard but i still cant get a correct answer for my compre. what to do?
compo? no confidence! sure fail
what if i really need is just a D7! i didnt expect much! did I? why my life hav to be like this! i hate it! no qualification! how to survive? everyone is looking down on me especially my family members! i can feel it! useless sokhwee! born to trouble ppl! can you just die! hopeless!
i'm not going to succced in everything i do! really useless!
Fucking E8! whats the point of getting better points for other subjects!
and i hate poly! why they cant just let me in! its feel so hurt to pass-by as i will recall how i went there to apply for DPA, 5 hopes in the first place slowly they disappeared! coz i dont have CCA! thats the most fucking reason! WHY???!!!!
can my life be smooth? if not please take me away...i dont wanna suffer here. please
i look down on myself! sometimes i will just cried for no reason. i'm troubled by sth! amost probably is studies! i am stress! really stress! friends help me but once again i disappoint them
they should feel helpless on me too.
i hate doing compre and compo! i tried and i'm tired
really tired! the stress is a big! i cant overcome it, i cant face reality. like what she said i'm just avoiding, its true. i dont like facing reality. I cant.
sorry my dear friends who put hope on me eventually i cant make it! sorry! when times come i will go....without leaving any things behind. i swear. dont feel upsad for me, its useless okay?
i really gtg! just waiting for subitable time.
and god please help me in doing so...let me leave peacefully without pain
if its with pain can you do it quick coz i dont mind. hopeing for a car accident to occured on me asps! i will be greatful...thanks god in advance.
dear friends! i really love you guys!
thanks for everything.